Thursday, August 30, 2012

A girl & her horse .....

Aubrey riding Lollie for the 1st time ......
My sweet princess loves horses. Actually to say she loves them is an understatement. She is completely obsessed with them. The first thing she asks every morning is to look at pictures of horses on the computer. She will sit at the computer for hours if I let her just scrolling up & down at images of horses. She tells us probably about 100 times a day she wants a horse here at our house. She tells us what she would name it if we would buy her one. Aubrey even tells us that she would feed it & ride it every day. I have never seen her more in love... I know she's only 4 but what if this passion is something she will have even as she grows up ? Michael told her when she gets bigger he would build her a barn & get her a horse. For now she will just continue to remind us how much she loves them until we finally get her a horse of her own.
~ Nichole

Aubrey on her horse Rocky that lives at Yaya's house


Because I want to.....

nice job !!
Me : Brandon.... Did you cut your hair today ?
Brandon: ( smiling) yes Mommy I did it at school.
Me : ummmm.... Bubba why would you cut your hair ?
Brandon : because I want to....
Me: we don't cut our own hair Brandon... Go sit on your bed
Brandon: why Mommy ?
Me: because I want you too....

The whole time I'm having this conversation with him Shelby & Aubrey are laughing because this child cut his own hair.... Ugh.... the people in this house are crazy....

~ Nichole

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Shelby is in high school.....

Daddy's girl

always acting crazy
with her Daddy
I can't believe Shelby started high school this year... Where did the time go ? It seems like just yesterday she was a cute little 5 year old girl going into kindergarten and now she's a beautiful young lady who is so confident in who she is and she wants for her life and we are so proud of her . She's not ashamed to show others who she is & share her love of God with people.  I love that every since Shelby has started school that Mike has taken her on the first day. Those are the memories that she will cherish forever. Mike actually walked her IN to school this year and she hugged him goodbye ... IN PUBLIC .. that's huge for a teenager but like I said before Shelby doesn't follow what other kids her age do.
This is how she walked
out the door ...
seriously... no more pictures !!
Shelby came home from school & told me that she had a great day. She is finding out who her true friends are & I'm excited to see how she enjoys high school. She loves art & drawing. She very good at it and I love when she will actually let me hang one of her pieces in the house. Shelby also LOVES to sing. She's in choir again this year although she told me that she doesn't like her new choir teacher. She wants to continue singing. 
~ Nichole

Kindergarten ....

My big 5 year old !!

seriously Mom !!!

posing with Daddy
Brandon went to kindergarten Monday. The morning started off with me literally dressing him while he was still in bed because he was tired still and didn't want to wake up . It was ok because hopefully I won't have to dress him forever .. :)

infront of the sign
at school 
another posing with Daddy shot :)
He was super excited that his Daddy was here to go with me to take him to his first day of school. I'm a picture person so of course I made him pose for pictures for me then for more with his Daddy , then more when we got to the school and finally the last ones when we dropped him off in his class. (Hey.. it's memories ... one day I might forget this stuff .. don't judge me ...  lol )
all smiles before going in ...
He just realized I
 wasn't staying with him
 When we got to his school we let him show us exactly how to get to his classroom. He is in the zebra hall and was very proud he remembered how to get there. I took another picture of him outside the classroom because he was all happy & smiling.... until I told him we were going to take him in & drop his stuff off then his Daddy and I were going to leave him at school. He clung to my leg and Randy had to  help me get him off cause he was kinda freaking out. Randy asked him to show him his cubby and where he sat to try to distract him. He showed his Daddy his cubby then sat in his seat with the most pathetic little sad face ever. I wanted to just cry with him ... instead of crying I held it in , hugged him & told him to have a great day at kindergarten and we would be back to pick him up after school.

Daddy & Brandon

 Randy went behind me & hugged him and was trying to make him feel better so I took another opportunityto take another picture of my sweet boy.

 It was so weird leaving him at school and walking back to my car seeing all the other moms crying . I wanted to join them but Randy kept distracting me so I didn't cry. He said I didn't want to mess up my makeup . I was proud of myself for keeping it together.

  When I picked him up from school I asked how his day was and what he did. He told me he has friends & he colored and that's all but he would go back tomorrow. I'm so glad because this is just the beginning of his school journey ....

~ Nichole



Friday, August 24, 2012

Brandon's meet the teacher..... Bittersweet

Brandon & Ms. Poplaski
 He was so cute cause he wouldn't sit by her
& blushed when she talked to him
This afternoon I took Brandon to meet the teacher night night at his school. He's going to kindergarten Monday. He was excited to meet Ms.Poplaski but didn't understand why Ms. Jackson (his pre-k teacher) want going to be his teacher & why his old friends weren't going to be there with him again. It's kinda hard to explain to a 5 year old that they are going to a new school & he would meet new friends. Luckily there is a friend from church that went to mdo with Aubrey in his class named Gabby that he will recognize & then some of our old friends who we call the other Mike & Nicole (that's really their daughter Emily is also in Brandon's class.
So i'm going to be honest now.... When I saw Emily was in his class I felt like I got hit in the stomach with a baseball bat. When I see her it only reminds me that I should be enrolling Conner, Madison, & Makenna in school this year because Nicole & I were pregnant together. It's so hard knowing that I'll never see my babies go to school or dance class or baseball practice like I will do with Brandon & Aubrey and it totally sucks. I try really hard to stay positive about how losing my babies changed my life forever but it's times like this that I just want to cry & I so desperately wish I could have them back. I didn't realize taking Brandon to school was going to be this hard for me but it just makes me remember the pain of losing my kids that I try to bury deep inside my heart. Yes I know God knows what he's was doing when he choose me to be their Mom & when he took them back to heaven with him but the selfish flesh me wants my kids so much. I'm Very grateful for Aubrey but she didn't replace Conner, Mady, or Makenna. I feel heart broken right now but maybe this is how I should feel. I have to put on my happy face Monday & take the little boy God put in my life to school & hide the fact i'm broken inside from not having my kids........ It's just not fair....
~ Nichole

Friday, August 17, 2012

Zoo Day

me, mom, Aubrey, Brandon, Trinity & Serenity

I love when I tell them to stand
 together because they always wrap their
 arms around each other & pose
sitting on a turtle
Today we went to the Houston Zoo with some friends from church. I have been wanting to take Aubrey to the zoo for a long time but this is her 3rd trip and I was finally able to take her. We had a very large group go. There were 6 adults & 14 kids ... It was crazy !! We had 3 wagons & 2 double strollers & 1 regular stroller to haul all those kids around in. It was SOOOOO HOT !! Texas feels like the only temperature we have it HOT & INCREDIBILITY HOT with not much in between . The gnomes did enjoy having a water fight with each other to cool down as we were walking around.

The whole gang that went to the zoo

 Brandon told me he wanted to see dinasours & was dissappointed for a minute when I told him that there weren't any then he decided he would rather see the lions more than the dinasours anyway :) Aubrey's favorite animal at the zoo was seeing the zebra because she said they are cute and they kinda look like horses. I think the next time we go back will be in the winter when it's not so hot but we really did have a great day .  

relaxing with the giraffe

~ Nichole

"Seriously Mom... "
Looking at the elephants

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

WOW.... How times flies when you stay home !!!

I can't believe that I haven't blogged since February ... Our family has been BUSY !!! I'm going to try to remember everything that has happened since my last post ...

Isaac, Steph, me, Mike, Amber & Tony
Matthew West
February : Mike & I went on another marriage cruise to the Bahamas and it was amazing !! We really enjoyed our self this time since we kinda knew what to expect this time around. We also met the most amazing friends Tony & Amber Weber and Isaac & Stephanie Coomer on the cruise. They live in Kansas & Illionis and we  have been trying all summer to get together with them but like I said It's been crazy busy. We also got to meet singer Matthew West on the cruise & now I'm in love with him !! :)

Mike & Coley

March : Mike & I celebrated 8 years of marriage. We didn't really do anything special since we just got back from our cruise.

14th birthday cake
the whole family
April : Britanee turned 20 & Shelby turned 14 .... I can't believe the girls are getting so old .. They have become some pretty amazing girls . We are super blessed to be their parents. We also took Brandon to Austin to visit his Daddy for the 1st time ever. We went to the Austin children's museum and it was so precious to see Brandon & Randy start their bond as father & son. Brandon also had field day at his school. He really enjoyed himself doing all the different activities. Ms.Jackson's class was the pre-k tug of war champions so he was proud that I was there to take a picture of his class with their trophy.   

Ms. Jackson's tug o war champians
me & my boy

May: The kids got out of school at the end of May so that's when all the craziness started happening .  Brandon graduated pre-k & Shelby got out of 8th grade. We took the kids to the beach. They had sun playing in the sand . Aubrey had her 2nd dance recital with Ms. Carol. She loves dance so much & is really good at it. We were also able to take our family to go see Casting Crowns & Matthew West in concert.

The finale :)
The family @ the recital

Casting Crowns & Matthew West concert
Before the cut ...
She loved he results..
June : Aubrey got her 1st major haircut. She got 7 inches cut off her hair. It was totally her choice & I kinda freaked out when she told me she wanted to cut her hair that short but I think it ended up looking adorable. We played at the park alot, the gnomes hung out with Yaya, we went to the library and we also got the most amazing waterslide. The whole family loves our slide . I also went to kid's camp with the youth from our church as a counselor. This was the 1st time I ever went because in the past I've always worked. I really had a great time with the girls and I'm looking forward to going again next year.

My crazy family
Randy & Brandon
1st game !!!
July: We went to an Astros game / MercyMe concert  with a bunch of our friends. It was the 1st game that Randy & Brandon had ever went to & they loved it.  Brandon turned 5 and we threw him a water slide birthday party. He was in heaven all day having all his friends & family hanging out at the house just celebrating with him. He told me several times " Mommy .. this is my best birthday ever !!! " I was so happy watching him enjoy himself on his special day. I think it was even more special to him because this was the first time both of his parents were together with him. Shelby went on a missions trip with the youth from our church. They did community service projects in the Dallas area. We were so proud of her for earning the $500 it took to go on this trip. She came back full of stories of the experiences she had while she was gone.
Brandon's cake
opening presents
loving the water
Happy to have both his parents there with him :)

I'm going to really try to keep up with our blog because I know These are memories I'm going to want to remember when I'm old & forgetful ......

I'm getting ready for school to start again. I've went school shopping for Brandon because he's going to kindergarten & my baby Shelby isn't a baby anymore ... She's going to be a freshman in high school .. ugh .. I am getting old ... This is my last year with Aubrey before she goes to school next year so I'm going to just soak up the time I have left with her. All my kids are growing up so fast but they are some amazing children.